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    Recovery

      From 2001 until 2013, I experienced rapid cycling bipolar disorder. It was total bullshit. Every month my hormones would perform their dance and I would start out irritable and end up depressed by the time my period started. Then I would get two “good” weeks to recover. Even the good weeks were shitty because […] Read more…

    What to Expect When You See a Psychiatrist

     If you have a mental illness, you are most likely seeing a psychiatrist (pdoc).  This post is designed to help the person that hasn’t been to a pdoc yet as well as those people that have been going for years. A pdoc is a medical doctor that specializes in mental illness and can prescribe medication […] Read more…

    Staying at the Nut Hut: Back to Mayo

      My second trip to Mayo in May 2013 was a bit more dire. Jesse had just had surgery to correct a deviated septum and I was back in a deep depression. I cried non-stop. I’ve never cried so much in my life. I simply could not get a hold of myself. So Jesse found […] Read more…

    Staying at the Nut Hut: First Time at Mayo

    While my time at the Marion Center staved off the crisis I was in, my illness was still not under control.  Six months later, in January 2013, my psychiatrist and I talked about my options.  She wanted me to go to Mayo Clinic in Minnesota.  She made all the arrangements and, within a week, Jesse […] Read more…

    I’m Doing It Wrong

    I talk a good game when it comes to battling mental illness. I have a lot of tools in my toolkit and I know how to use them. I am also medication compliant, participate in individual therapy, see my psychiatrist at least once a month and participate in group therapy weekly. But there’s also the […] Read more…

    Post Partum Disaster

      The sounds of his six-week-old cried filled me with terror.  My brain had yet to reconcile itself after his birth.  A screeching noise bounced around my head.  I was so desperate for quiet. I clapped my hands over my ears. As I alluded to in https://www.mentallyinteresting.com/shit-just-got-real, it did not occur to me that it […] Read more…

    Walking the Ledge

    Sixteen years ago I was barreling down I-29 in North Kansas City.  My husband of 10 years and son of three weeks were in the back seat.  I was in the grips of Post Partum Psychosis and I was saturated with fear. I looked at the odometer…60 mph.  The voices that had popped up in […] Read more…